My jaw muscles have been sore lately and I've been exhausted at the end of each day - but I still sleep badly. I have things I need to do on the farm, but I have been finding reasons to go inside sooner than I should. When I am inside, I find myself getting up and going to a window far more frequently than I usually do so I can scan the horizon. Each time I hear the whine of a big piece of equipment coming down the road or the roar of an airplane, my shoulders creep up to my ears, my blood pressure goes up and and I fight the desire to either hide or go yell profanities to whomever might hear them. I find that I have to remind myself that I do not like violence and it will not solve anything....